The only thing I hate about not eating is my hair falling off, I didn’t remember this and I hate it, it’s getting so thin and I wish it wouldn’t.
My day was full of thoughts today. Like should I really give up on someone I love or continue but suffer some more. I just hate not having stability and I haven’t been able to talk with him as much lately but it’s my fault. I’ve been trying to sleep during the day so I won’t be able to eat anything as soon as I’m home that way I’ll only have breakfast and dinner. Im taking laxatives too so I can loose the most in whatever way possible. I had lunch today so my intake was huge. I wish I could’ve stayed under 800 but atleast I did some cardio, I had my winter hoodie just in case it helped in any way. I don’t know If i want to keep sleeping during my evenings, that way I won’t eat almost anything but then I can’t talk to him that much. Don’t even know If I should.